i found screwtape letters in softcopy inside my com (in notepad format) so i started reading it. but computer screen + cslewis writing + complicated perspective + degenerating military brain does not make it easy to read. i think books are easier.

but there's a bit on prayer that i found which i thought i should think thrice on (everything inside is worth thinking twice)
when you pray for charity are you actually trying to manufacture charitable feelings?
courage when you are actually trying to feel brave?
forgiveness when you are actually trying to feel forgiven?
in other words... its not all about producing the desired feeling.
that's focusing on your own mind and not God

sometimes we direct our prayers
"up and to the left at the corner of the bedroom ceiling, or inside his own head, or in a crucifix on the wall."
we might end up
"praying to it—to the thing that he has made, not to the Person who has made him."

"Once all his thoughts and images have been flung aside or, if retained, retained with a full recognition of their merely subjective nature, and the man trusts himself to the completely real, external, invisible Presence, there with him in the room and never knowable by him as he is known by it—why, then it is that the incalculable may occur."

quotes, and most of this post from the screwtape letters. by cs lewis. found in a bookshop near you!

pray "not to what i think Thou art, but to what Thou knowest Thyself to be."

seriously all this is so intangible it makes it puzzling. which is kind of a point that mr lewis makes - the more intangible the way we pray/ the things we pray/ our prayer itself = more spiritual?

hmmm.