anyways. thank God for caregroup today. :) really needed it... and thank God for matthew too. worshipping while playing a guitar and worshipping without a guitar is quite a big difference. you don't have chords flying all over your head and your fingers.

was studying ecclesiastes.. heh. so much thoughts going in my head i can't really organise them well. then at the same time were there a lot of thoughts? the book kept saying, "meaningless... all but a chasing of the wind". life doesn't make sense without God, doesn't it? you live- you die [ok. so its not exactly that. its more like. you live-pursue your dreams-have fun-maybe even live life fulfilling-you die happy]. some righteous people live worst lives than the worst people on earth. in the light of that. yahh. everything seems meaningless. labour for what? sense of satisfaction/achievement? i guess that's possible. so its like, live life, get a good job, work hard, live a good life, raise a good family, retire good and happy, die good and happy that does sound like a more than satisfying life. but is it? what is good? when is it good enough?

i've come to a point where i myself am not sure what i'm trying to say. : . well. life would probably never seem good/good enough for some. what does God do? give us the reason [incentive & ability] to live. my right brain can't imagine, brain wash and convince my left brain to such an extent on anything. i know He's real. else i'll just slack everyday in the canteen everyday. just like what i used to do in tas everyday after school. slack. watch people play magic cards. play a bit myself. and snack on other people's tater-tots. ok, i'm going out of point again. but i know He's real. can't deny it. (: